The Equanimous Mind®

An inner dialogue with doubt, clarity, and truth–a reflective lens on the human condition.


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  • Painted Faces

    Painted Faces

    08/19/25 My bedroom walls are painted with ghosts that howl at me and rush by whenever I need a solid interruption. I can’t tell why they choose to bother me—especially at night, when the moon has reached its peak in the sky. The moon rises and falls with the memories that put me to sleep,… Continue reading

  • A Buttress Against Despair

    A Buttress Against Despair

    08/08/2025             I have loved. I have lost. I have tried. But, time and again, what has failed me most consistently is my lack of motivation to build a life beyond my research, my art, and my fantasy future. I have locked myself in this glass box I inherited from my father, my mother, and my… Continue reading

  • Catapult

    Catapult

    08/06/25 Once, I was so terribly lonely that I decided to make friends with grief and sorrow. I had been scared of these underwater feelings, the kinds that take you down to the depths of the ocean, the kinds that block you from seeing the way forward.             I had to learn how to live with… Continue reading

  • Savage, Brave Actor

    Savage, Brave Actor

    08/ 04/ 2025 Most of all, I want my time back. So much so that I was confused by a version of my past mirrored back to me in another person of the same age when I made a U-turn in life. An old reflection that lied to me that love was conditional based on… Continue reading

  • Golden Bridge

    Golden Bridge

    08/02/25 My relationship with change is complicated because if I could only embrace change instead of giving in to my stubbornness, which feels like a raging waterfall flowing out of my chest, I would enjoy life much more. I would also save myself a lot of stress, tension headaches, and backaches. I’d probably get my… Continue reading

  • Bird Camouflaged in the Thicket

    Bird Camouflaged in the Thicket

    07/28/25 Goodbyes are challenging for three reasons: first, you can’t go back in time; second, you can’t turn a goodbye into a positive if the situation isn’t inherently positive; and third, you can’t move forward if you don’t both discover and carry the wisdom you’ve recently gained. I feel like I owe myself more glimmers… Continue reading